Karma

I am not sure if there is anyone left out there. I have been gone for 6 years.  I am happy to report that I am still green and clean.  I got married 5 years ago. 3 weekends ago my wife cheated on me with the father of her children while she was at home. I was not able to go with her and she went with her sister.  To say things haven been great between us is an understatement of biblical proportions but I can honestly say that my time on this site really helped me and I never strayed. I never even have come close to it. My boundaries have been exactly where they need to be for the first time in my life. But I think all the hurt I have caused, all the pain that I caused others is coming back to me. It's hard to say I don't deserve it I mean I guess that is what karma is Although I never cheated on this wife. I have been devestated. I forgive her of course. But I truly understand the heartbreak that I have caused in the past as I am truly experiencing it first hand. This is harder than anything I have gone through. It was good to write this even if no one sees it.