Just me...

I realized this evening that I need to focus on Zachary more.  I went in the bathroom earlier tonight to get online for a few minutes... that is crazy.  I only have a few hours each night with him and lately I have been consumed with the baby that is gone.  I need to realize I have an awesome little man who wants to spend time with me. what the hell is wrong with me.  I need to get over myself and realize what is important.  I need to focus on the family I have.  Why do I feel guilty for mourning my baby.   I don't know what is right anymore...