just want to share
My new best friends....As I read all of your journals this week i have felt different emotions..happiness for those of us who made it alright..sadness for those of us who are just so sad..deep sorrow for yet another one lost. So I wanted to share with you something that happened to me on my weekend. Saturday nothing slept most of the day needed a kick in the but to get up and go to costco. Oh joy... I hate going to costco but my husband just loves it. Came home and really didn't do much else. Read some of your journals and went to bed. Next morning got up to go to church..didn't want to go. Thought a at least 10 good reasons why I shouldn't and then thought of 100 why I should so I went. I know that we are not all on the same page with our faith and what we believe..I understand that. But I just wanted to share with you what happened to me at church on Sunday and why the enemy wanted me to stay home so badly.. Got there did our praise and worship and was feeling pretty good.Listened to the message and was blessed then we had a slideshow that showed the faces of our young men and women who have lost their lives in this present war.. Most of them young men and women in their 20's. I was crying softly in my seat as I looked at those precious faces. I sat there thinking about their mom's and dad's..brother's and sister's..grandparents..friends and how sad they are..my heart was breaking for them. Then after service a friend of mine tapped me on my arm and asked if I would like to meet someone who had just lost her son 2 weeks ago in a motorcycle accident. I turned and almost ran to her. As if I could somehow rescue her from this nightmare that she now lives. When our eyes meet I felt so much pain. Again my heart was one with hers and I started to cry and all I could do was hold her and tell her how sorry I was... because I know what she is going through.. On the way home i was thinking about what had happened and God showed me that His heart is one with mine in my pain and anguish as well. He understands and He loves me very much. That was such a sweet moment for me. When I got home later that day I read my e-mails and this was in my box. Some of you may already know about griefshare. It is a christian based website that delivers e-mails daily to you to encourage you. I wanted to share this with anyone who might be blessed by this as I was. I love all of you so much. My heart is full of joy and yet so broken. It's hard to understand I know. But I hope you enjoy the message.Love bens mom 4ever Debi Coping With the Loss of a Child Day 159 To lose a child of any age—from an infant to an adult child—is one of the greatest shocks a parent can experience. The death of a child is tragic and feels entirely wrong. "It's so out of sequence and just so unnatural when your child, whom you protected all your life, dies. Is there something you could have done to have spared this?" says Pastor Buck Buchanan. This grief can be very deep. As Matthew 2:18 says, "A voice is heard in Ramah, weeping and great mourning, Rachel weeping for her children and refusing to be comforted, because they are no more." God knows your sorrow, and no matter how dark or painful your situation, Jesus can bring you hope. Sometimes, though, you feel like rejecting that hope and embracing your despair, as if hopefulness is somehow a betrayal to your child. Do not let Satan manipulate your thoughts in that way. Seek God and allow Him to light your path. Lord and Savior, You are the only one who knows my sorrow. My body is enveloped in pain and wracked by grief, but I know there is hope because of You. Help me to live out that hope. Amen.
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Thank you for sharing your amazing story. I am so glad you were there, at church, for that woman. We moms are in a different place now, that only another mom who has suffered as we, can understand. I used to call it, \"The sad eyes club\" after I first lost the boys. God does know our sorrow. I was so angry with Him after Jordan died, and then double when I lost Nick too! I kept asking Him, why? Why my boys, why 2 of them? I blamed Him, I cursed Him, you name it. But, I\'m getting better now. I know that God is not punishing me. I still don\'t understand why, but I know that I will someday. Big hugs to you honey. I am blessed to call you friend. Love ya, Barbara
Thank you for such a touching story. I know my faith has been greatly tested with the loss of my son but I do know that life is uncertain. For some great happiness, good health and easy living. For others, sadness, sickness, disappointment and a measure of sorrow. But regardless of what the future holds for each and every one of us there is the savior Jesus Christ and the love of God. They are our \"anchor\", our strength, our comfort and the focus of the way we should live and not only endure but to enjoy as well. Thinking of you. Love Robin
Thankyou for sharing,After Reggie died I was hurt and angry at the world And more so for God taking him (thats what I thought at the time) I just wanted to die,My sister came to me and said God didnt do this to you to hurt you There is evil out and they dont care who they hurt, evil is what did this, God Love and forgive,It took me a while to know and ask God for his forgiveness ,He has brought me threw My son was killed 17yrs ago and today I still hurt \\cry \\and miss him(Time has not change that) But I no he is in the arms of God and I will see him again ,
HUGS...Caroline
Thanks for sharing. Glad you were in church to offer a hug and understanding to that woman. When we give, so do we recieve. Love and hugs cathy
Thank you so much for sharing. That was very inspiring. {{{Hugs}}} Carolyn
Wow...doesn\'t it feel good to hug someone who is in terrible pain? I become strong each time I do. If I can feel strong after only 5 weeks, I can imagine what I can do for others after 5 months, 5 years. I will dedicate my life to helping others as much I can. Thank you for your story, Debi. Love to you, Beth