Just Venting

Just one of those weird Saturday nights and I don't feel like myself, I'm not sick or anything like that I just feel BLAH.. easily agitated and unheard.. there's a movement I'm supposed to make and I'm afraid to because of the rippled affect I think comes with it.. I don't wanna lose anyone and although in my mind I know I have no control over that I just have this nervousness of the Next Step.. but I don't want to block my own growth and prosperity any longer.. I need to feel whole and safe and at this moment I just don't.