just thoughts
Good morning DS friends,
Can you believe half of this year is over. I guess when you live it counting the days of chemotherapy it slips by. I surely don't want to complain because I know that we are blessed. We are coming up on the 13th anniversary of the beginning of Steve's cancer journey. When I look back and remember how I crawled in the bed with him after the doctor told him he had kidney cancer. Or how I cried when they took him away from me that August morning. I remember begging God for a little more time with him. Why did God answer my prayer and not those of others? I truly beleive that we each have a desinated (mispelled) time to die. An appointed time the Bible says. So many many things I don't understand and never will. Someone told me once that I could ask God when I get to heaven, but I expect that it won't matter then.
I have had so many of you on my mind. Dear Gloria, Karen. And of course Becca, Ingrid, and Meriel. What pain they are going thru! Will I be as strong? You know I am not a healthy person myself so I may go before Steve. My thoughts won't let me go there this morning.
On a lighter note, Steve and I will celebrate our 45th wedding anniversary on Saturday. Of course we so young when we married. 18 and 19. My goodness we were babies. He really was and is my one and only love. Looking back over the years I never once thought about cheating on him. I am a old fashioned girl I guess. Hey I took those vows seriously. Sometimes I want to kick his ass, and I tell him I will do it when he is sleeping and he tells me I had better make the first lick count!!! First I tell you how much I love him and then tell you I want to kick his ass, go figure? LOL (thats true love)
Sending my love and prayers,
Wanda
Can you believe half of this year is over. I guess when you live it counting the days of chemotherapy it slips by. I surely don't want to complain because I know that we are blessed. We are coming up on the 13th anniversary of the beginning of Steve's cancer journey. When I look back and remember how I crawled in the bed with him after the doctor told him he had kidney cancer. Or how I cried when they took him away from me that August morning. I remember begging God for a little more time with him. Why did God answer my prayer and not those of others? I truly beleive that we each have a desinated (mispelled) time to die. An appointed time the Bible says. So many many things I don't understand and never will. Someone told me once that I could ask God when I get to heaven, but I expect that it won't matter then.
I have had so many of you on my mind. Dear Gloria, Karen. And of course Becca, Ingrid, and Meriel. What pain they are going thru! Will I be as strong? You know I am not a healthy person myself so I may go before Steve. My thoughts won't let me go there this morning.
On a lighter note, Steve and I will celebrate our 45th wedding anniversary on Saturday. Of course we so young when we married. 18 and 19. My goodness we were babies. He really was and is my one and only love. Looking back over the years I never once thought about cheating on him. I am a old fashioned girl I guess. Hey I took those vows seriously. Sometimes I want to kick his ass, and I tell him I will do it when he is sleeping and he tells me I had better make the first lick count!!! First I tell you how much I love him and then tell you I want to kick his ass, go figure? LOL (thats true love)
Sending my love and prayers,
Wanda
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