Just thinking outloud

I had my first day off since last Sat.  I tried to keep a positive spin on things. I am having problems dealing with this new reality I find myself in. 
I was living with friends for 9 years, last Nov my world took a dramatic shift when my friend's husband announced that he was taking an early retirement and decided to move cross country to the Portland OR area. 
I didn't want to go out there and decided to stay on the east coast.  I moved in with a lady who lives in the same town house community. I watched her cats for her when she went away. She was one of my customers in my pet sitting/ dog walking business. 
I don't do well with change.  I wasn't working for a while, then about 3 years ago I started the pet sitting/ dog walking business.  Without a car my situation was limited to the community. I didn't make much money but since I wasn't paying rent it was enough for me to put some money in the bank.
My friends left the beginning of July for OR. I moved in here the end of May and right after that I started a job with home depot.  Been a huge change. My friend's in OR have shown me.pics of.their new.life out there and I try not to be jealous. I couldn't go with them. It was time for us to go our separate ways.  
I feel lost, alone and confused.  I don't know.if I should stay here where I am or move in with a friend who lives in Nebraska. She offered me a place to stay.
 
I hope all my friends here on data are ok.