Just Talking...
Well damn, haven't been on here in over a week.
Let's see, so I have been at my girlfriends all week, oh yeah I'm a lesbian. Just to throw that one out there. And well she has been my neighbor and best friend for 6 years, and now we are together. I couldn't be happier! (: And she has really changed it all for me. I am actually finding reasons to be happy because of her. I have told her about my skin before, but she doesn't know really a lot about it. I'm sure I will tell her more when I can. I have been around her all week so I haven't really complained about my skin because she wouldn't really understand it yet. So in a way her not knowing is good so I am no having pity parties about it.
My skin calmed down for a little and now my under arms are going crazy. I have never got a new lesion in the same place I have a scar and now I am. They hurt like no other. The weird thing is the ones that hurt the absolute worst are the ones that you can barely see. Although they look fine, they are like golf balls under my skin and are throbbing. I'm over this shit for sure. I seriously wish I could just remove all the shit with no scars, no pain, and just be done with it.
This is the first time in over 7 years I haven't been to the doctor every couple weeks/months. I haven't been since December and I'm proud of myself. I usually run to them with the little things and end up leaving in more pain and very unsatisfied. I am now using my family and friends to cope with everything. My family and I are all good now, and we are working on things. I haven't really been around lately but its kinda good to just get away from it all. I also patched things up with my best friend on 5 years today, so it really made me happy. His dad just had a baby today so it kinda gave a reason to talk to him. I am really glad because he is honestly my biggest support system.
Well, I am writing this waiting for my girlfriend to get out of the shower. I am going to have a movie night and just have fun (: I hope everyone else is having a good night!
Xoxo Megan
Let's see, so I have been at my girlfriends all week, oh yeah I'm a lesbian. Just to throw that one out there. And well she has been my neighbor and best friend for 6 years, and now we are together. I couldn't be happier! (: And she has really changed it all for me. I am actually finding reasons to be happy because of her. I have told her about my skin before, but she doesn't know really a lot about it. I'm sure I will tell her more when I can. I have been around her all week so I haven't really complained about my skin because she wouldn't really understand it yet. So in a way her not knowing is good so I am no having pity parties about it.
My skin calmed down for a little and now my under arms are going crazy. I have never got a new lesion in the same place I have a scar and now I am. They hurt like no other. The weird thing is the ones that hurt the absolute worst are the ones that you can barely see. Although they look fine, they are like golf balls under my skin and are throbbing. I'm over this shit for sure. I seriously wish I could just remove all the shit with no scars, no pain, and just be done with it.
This is the first time in over 7 years I haven't been to the doctor every couple weeks/months. I haven't been since December and I'm proud of myself. I usually run to them with the little things and end up leaving in more pain and very unsatisfied. I am now using my family and friends to cope with everything. My family and I are all good now, and we are working on things. I haven't really been around lately but its kinda good to just get away from it all. I also patched things up with my best friend on 5 years today, so it really made me happy. His dad just had a baby today so it kinda gave a reason to talk to him. I am really glad because he is honestly my biggest support system.
Well, I am writing this waiting for my girlfriend to get out of the shower. I am going to have a movie night and just have fun (: I hope everyone else is having a good night!
Xoxo Megan
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