Just stupid ramblings...
I am 21 going on 22. I cant keep my thoughts proper nor my actions clear. I can't even be nice. I'm yelling at everyone, but I'm talking to no one. I don't want them to be as disappointed in me as my parents are. I still have those dangerous thoughts and even almost act on them.... I'm just being stupid....
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Hey Secondchance. I love your name by the way. You are not stupid and your thoughts are not stupid. There is a reason why you are lashing out at everyone. I do the same thing. I usually end up taking out everything on my mom. I also feel like I have disappointed my parents but you know what they have disappointed me too. It doesn\'t mean we have failed as a human being. It just means that we need to allow ourselves to give ourselves and each other the love and respect that we all deserve. I am learning that when I am in one of my moods. The bad ones where I want to scream and yell and say hurtful things that it is best if I am by myself. Journaling ,poetry, art and music have helped me a lot. Just talking things out with another person really helps. To feel like you are being heard and have a voice. I think battling this darkness inside of us is a lifelong battle. Just never give up fighting. Much love.
Guin