Just so tired

So tired of everything. Tired of never having money to pay bills. Tired of things never going right. Tired of what has happened in the past following me and keeping me from pulling myself up off the ground. Tired of feeling like I'm not good enough for anything or anyone. Tired of not having the confidence to know I deserve a better job and going to pursue that job. Tired of being fat and nothing short of starving myself is working. Tired of feeling like a failure all the time. Tired of feeling like I keep letting everyone down. Tired of trying to live my life for everyone else when I really need to be living it for me. Tired of being taken for granted. Tired of feeling like a failed mother because i can't give my child what i want him to have. Tired of not being talked to about issues going on. Tired of being depressed all the time. Tired of putting up a front so no one really knows what's going on. Tired of not having anyone to talk to and this is my only release. Tired of having to stay home due to lack of funds to go anywhere. Tired of always sitting here crying because I feel I have no one to go to. Just so tired.