just sitting here thinking

Im just sitting here thinking what should i do. I have broken glass sitting here in front of me.What is wrong with me i feel so down that i just whant to kill my self. there is nothen for me anymore here. I feel so traped its not funny, i cant beleave im thinking of killing my self and nowing no one can stop me cause no one nows were i live how funny is that, even if they did they still cant stop me.i cant get rid of these nasty dreames that are hunting me for years there was to much abuse done to me i just cant see how any body could servie it i know im to week im just not strong.every thing is taking a toll on me there is no easy way to tell any one how i feel cause deep down in side they dont realy know im   it seems like i have to put on a fake smile i got like 50 scares on my body whats one more who cares i dont im so confussed anymore whos a true and trusting friend hey why not isould just off myself and leave this wourld for you out there thank you for trying to help my mom seems to want me dead any way so do i  i cant see the reasin i want to live its just making me even more deperesd like they say if you cant handle it then go theres no place here for the week please dont get mad at me you guys are much stronger than i am