Just one of those days

It's been a tough morning..That "suffocating" feeling has returned. At least I'm not bawling..as long as I don't talk about it I've been able to keep it together. I miss my son so much. I looked into his room last night and the memories of kissing him good night and watching him sleep came flooding back, almost as if I were watching a movie. It's never going to go away, is it? My poor baby...one moment hes sitting in the car anxious about going to Sea World and the next his entire life is just over! I know he's in a better place, he's with the lord..I trust that..but he should be here, with me..planning his big birthday party, playing and fighting with his brother. Jon and I are going to watch Cars 2 today..he should be here to see it with us :(
I have a dinner meeting with Congressman Reyes on Wednesday, I don't know how much help he can be to Jarrett's Law but its worth a shot. I got 200 car decals in print for supporters of Jarrett's Law. I cant wait to see them on cars all over the country, I have more manufacturers on standby to make more once we run out of the first set. I'm getting frustrated with the Car Seat Company, they are not responding to my request for the car seats, so I'm going to start soliciting help from the local department stores. I really want to make Jarrett Memorial Birthday a big deal..I cant let this city forget..