Just need to keep it together until Friday...

I haven’t been as “present” have I…I think my finding myself doing a bit more protecting myself this time around then I have in the past cycles. Both DH and I are. I feel a bit numb, which made me feel guilty until I realized he was feeling along the same lines. When you’re told time after time that everything looks great and turns out not so, it makes sense you’d shut down slightly at some point. Not that we’re not hopeful, certainly not a lack of wanting, just a protective mechanism.    Not having any symptoms or side effects of anything to speak of, kinda freaking me out although I suppose I should be relived right. Just can’t please us huh. Keep reminding myself that lots of people who conceive either naturally or artificially that have no real symptoms, only gets me so far though.   Had a terrible day at work on Friday, left me with a bit of a “bitchy” hangover, so I’m just going to use meditation each day this week to try and keep myself balanced. I have my wedding photo’s to finally put up and so that project will come in right on time. I have a Pampered Chef party on Thursday night. And getting ready for my Girl’s Night on Friday and there’s Premier week on TV so I should have enough to distract me and keep me from going stir crazy.   I just hope this is it!