Just my thoughts today

Just thought it would help to jot a few things down. Posted on the site for the first time yesterday. Was very anxious doing it, not really been much to ask for help or tell strangers my feelings and problems. Felt good afterwards, so I guess that's a positive thing.
Have mixed emotions about the comments from the group to my post, but also understand everyone has an opinion and I have to consider that when I reading. Was happy to see people listening and giving feedback, made me feel good to know that people genuinely care and that I'm not alone.
So the wife and are so so. On the surface seems good, we are talking, she's smiling a bit....I know some of this is a front. Monday we talked in the morning and the future came up which was emotional because she still sees no future with us. This hurt a lot, but I know it will take time for her to maybe believe different....just hope there is time. She made me remember that we really need to just take this day by day.
Some positive on it, she wants me to go to here counselor with her Friday. I'm really nervous about it, but I think it will help.