Just miss you so much Melodie

Went outside to go clean out your car today..I'm worried that its sat for a month, so i want to drive it to go run bill paying errands so the battery can get some charge and fluids dont sit there turning to sludge.. I took out the empty starbucks cups, crackers..little bags of litter..then i found a yellow envelope, addressed to my mom.. You were sending her a bunch of pictures of your plants and just hadnt mailed them yet.."thats a bummer" i thought and continued cleaning up.. 
 
Oh, here's another bag, tied shut..I open it up, and its clearly a couple items you were hiding from me for xmas presents.. Sadness washes over me.. I set them aside and pickup some more litter..Honey, you really had a messy car :)   What's this...Another tied shut bag..and more hidden xmas presents for me..
Tears flow..
I don't know when you got this stuff, you have been gone now more than a month..It makes me sad to think about how excited you would have been on xmas day handing me the presents you would have wrapped.. crying right now as i write this..I miss you so much Melodie..so so much..
I love you