just make it stop

I seriously want to die today! My mom keeps repeating the same damned question. " Where is my father". Meaning her father. I calmly repeat he died 40 years ago. The grief and tears I see and hear are making me very anxious. I try to remember how she must feel and I do. I just want to die so I won't have to answer that painful question one more time. I feel so guilty because I just want it to stop. And I know there are painful questions to come.