Just Letting Some Things Out

I lost my father to melanoma the beginning of this year in February and I don't know if I've really, fully accepted his death yet. I've been trying to best to get through everything and keep my head up regarding college and work, but lately I've felt like I've hit a wall. The way that I've been coping with my dad's passing is just kind of pretending that it never happened and that he basically never existed, however I know that I can't keep up with this way of coping forever and I don't want to. I want to be able to look back on happy memories with my father and not want to cry, so I'm hoping that as the days and years go by,  I'll find another productive way of coping with the loss and be able to accomplish this. In the meantime, I'm hoping to just survive this semester at college, keep up with my job in the mall, and make it through the holidays in one piece.