Just heard.....

When we separated my x moved away and I just heard through the grapevine that he is planning on coming here in March to visit my daughter and son and he has in his head that we are going to get back together.  I have no intentions of ever ever ever going through that abuse again!! I know I went before God and I said my vows and so did he but he didn't come through with the "to love and to cherish". If he did he never would have treated me the way that he did. Spitting on me, throwing things are me, ripping the shirt off my back, calling me terrible disgusting names. I could go on and on.... I am free of that now and I can finally come home and relax not wondering when the next fit of rage is going to be. I would have been with him forever had he even shown me a little bit of respect. I gave him 20+ years to change and it never happened. Then when he did decide to move out of town he left me with all the bills to deal with. I never run him down to anybody even though its hard not to at times. My live was a living hell when I was with him whether anybody believes that or not! Its really doesn't matter to me what other people think I know what went on!!! I would never live that way again..I would sooner be alone the rest of my life then live another 20 years of abuse!!! I can't even believe he would think I would go back with him after all he put me through.I don't mind meeting up with him for coffee or something but I am not meeting him alone. He always told me if I left him he would kill me and to tell you the truth I wouldn't put it past him. I seen that hate in this eyes when he had be backed against a wall spitting in my face, threatening my life and the kids lives too.I am just so upset that he talks about us getting back together. Its not going to happen..not now..not ever!! He is close friends with my sister and her family and he says that he took his vows and I will always be his wife. That he will never be with anybody else but me!  He is at their place all the time. I have no idea what he tells them and I really don't care either. My children and I lived the hell not them! I just had to get all of this off my chest...I lived in fear for so long and was forced to keep my mouth shut or pay the price if I didn't. I don't have to do that any longer!