Just General Life

I should get my tax return tomarrow, im exited. so i can get things taken care of.  then i will feel better about things. its been tough for me to get things done lately, little things, .like the dishes, vacuuming, anything of the sort. i used to do it every day, but the past month, maybe even two i dont want anyting to do with any of it. its hard to drag myself up to do it. i mean, dont picture mountains of dishes and stains all over the floor, its not disgusting, but it is a seemingly constant clutter. i know the baby is walking and has an obsession wit pulling things down as soon as i put them up, but she is a good girl, and really not too bad about things. i need to get my but up and moving, i havent even started working out yet, and i really do, want to wear a bikini this summer, i never have, even when i was in shape cause i was too self concious. and i just want to be in shape and skinny one more time, before i have more kids, or anything else. im going to order nutrisystem, its expensive, but i think one month of it will get me on the right track. and there is a gym here with daycare, i calculated out it will cost about 200 a month to work out 8 hours a week, yikes, but its the only way i will be able to do it consistently, and i think it will help this boring, blah-yucky mood i cant seem to shake.  Just a thought, a year, even two and 3 years ago, i would not have been able to afford nutrisystem, or even thought about it. or that expensive of a gym membership cause i was gambling that bad. im glad i am where i am now.  and next project, is to move out of this itsy bitsy tiny apartment! Ariyah needs her own room! or at least a place to put her toys, and im worried about my dog, she keeps getting out of this fence, its a huge yard, and there is a highway right next to it. i cant imagine being without my puppy. and im tired of hearing the landlords in the mainhouse fight or talk, or whatever, its always loud. i can hear a fly fart over there. im talking with a friedn at work, who has two kids, and her husband, and we are all thinking of finding a big 4-5 bedroom house to rent together, and save money, she is paying 1000, not even including utilities, and we are paying 600.  ours wouldnt change a whole lot, but we would have more rooms and more space. it would be easy to find a house like that for 1300 or so, maybe even less.  i think its a good idea, we just all need to start hangin out so that to make sure we get along. but so far we do. only thing im worrried about is her son, she says how much of a hellion he is.....  what does everyone think?