Just focus

My wondeful ladies I have missed you so...I am on Christmas break and when you have lots of time on your hands your mind goes wondering and negative thoughts start flowing! I end this year yet again not pregnant, however I am doing my darnest to stay positive. I mean I have a job where I have 2 weeks to do what I please and I am not spending it crying. I have made a list of things to occupy that time.  I pray that 2010 is good to me. I can't get into another year of saying I hope it brings me a baby, or it's going to be my year! I have said that for the last 3 years and nothing. SO I'll just say "I pray it will be good to me" I didn't realize just how much this journey will take such a toll on me and my emotional well-being. I realize that we are so strong to go through this daily. I mean every moment of this journey brings reminders of our empty arms.  I look at countless kids, babies, and families and my heart skips a beat. This is an emotional journey like no other. I am quite proud of the women I am. I am so strong!!