Just feeling stressed and tired

Life has a way of hitting you in the gut, 2012 when I last posted I had so much optimism about life and really I didn’t worry so much. After getting my degree my anxiety just ramped up and I found myself having panic attacks about learning to deal with life. I finally got someone to love but I can’t find work to save up for our own home or a wedding, my parents call me lazy not seeing that panic attacks and daily anxiety is a nightmare to live with. I want to work but there’s nothing close to me and I can’t drive without nearly blacking out. Also physical work is tough for me, back and knee pain needing daily narcotics makes just daily living is so hard. Sorry about ranting but life just so unfair anymore.