Just feeling alone...

Struggling today...just like many nights I laid in bed last night crying into my pillow...wishing I had somebody to talk to...somebody to hug me and tell me everything was going to be alright...my family have made it clear that they in no way support my decision to leave...they think I am just looking for an excuse to get out of a perfectly good marriage..they think I am being selfish...part of it is my fault because for years I let on I was living the perfect life because I didn't want nobody to know how things truly were..I didn't want them to know that I failed as a wife...that I couldn't make this marriage work...I only went to visit them 4-5 times a year so it was easy to put on the life is perfect act when I was there...I have never been one to tell people my problems..I keep them inside where they are safe...I have never had anybody that I could trust with my deepest thoughts and feelings....even to this day most people don't know what my life is like at home...the people I work with who see me every day have no idea how unhappy I am....