just feel like writing

I think I'm starting to adjust to my situation.  I'm trying to keep up with daily living.  Work and kids and house.  I feel like I"m nonstop these days and this week has been stressful.  I am trying to pull my life together.  I'm realizing how lost time with my stbx has affected where I am in life now.  I have to do so much maintanance on my house right now.  The stbx neglected everything.  No rest for the weary these days.  Stresses at work are bugging me.  I'm paranoid now that I'll lose my job now that there's noone else to rely on.  I just need some time off to be o.k. again. The divorce is almost here.  I did the final signing and 'parenting class' that the county requires.  Now I just have to wait for it to be done.  I feel strangely o.k. about it.  Even relieved.  My life and the lives of my kids are now up to me and me alone.  It's comforting considering how bad off we were with Greg.  I just can't believe I never knew him and was so convinced that I did!  It's a scarey thought.  I still can't understand what all just happened!!!

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deleted_user
deleted_user

Hi Cherie,
It sounds like you are doing ok. It is probably pretty normal to worry about your job since you are the soul support but don\'t let it drive you crazy, you can only do what you can do. Stay strong and big hugs girlfriend.

Janice
trisha9054
trisha9054

Did we ever know the man we married? I thought so too but he morphed into someone I don\'t want to know. You will get your life worked out and things will start going smoothly. It\'s amazing what can be accomplished when it\'s just you doing the work. I find I get much more done now.
Take care
trisha9054
trisha9054

Did we ever know the man we married? I thought so too but he morphed into someone I don\'t want to know. You will get your life worked out and things will start going smoothly. It\'s amazing what can be accomplished when it\'s just you doing the work. I find I get much more done now.
Take care
deleted_user
deleted_user

Just look at it this way...you\'ve rid yourself of a dependent.
Cherie1
Cherie1

Thanks girls!! I appreciate your taking the time to comment.
I do feel like I\'ve rid myself of a dependent! It\'s like a big weight has been lifted in one sense. The heart can still be heavy at times but it\'s getting lighter too.
Love to you all!
Cherie