just feel like writing
I think I'm starting to adjust to my situation. I'm trying to keep up with daily living. Work and kids and house. I feel like I"m nonstop these days and this week has been stressful. I am trying to pull my life together. I'm realizing how lost time with my stbx has affected where I am in life now. I have to do so much maintanance on my house right now. The stbx neglected everything. No rest for the weary these days. Stresses at work are bugging me. I'm paranoid now that I'll lose my job now that there's noone else to rely on. I just need some time off to be o.k. again. The divorce is almost here. I did the final signing and 'parenting class' that the county requires. Now I just have to wait for it to be done. I feel strangely o.k. about it. Even relieved. My life and the lives of my kids are now up to me and me alone. It's comforting considering how bad off we were with Greg. I just can't believe I never knew him and was so convinced that I did! It's a scarey thought. I still can't understand what all just happened!!!