Just don\'t want to eat

I just don't want to eat, i am eating properly cuz i know i have to, but the thoughts are so strong in my head and its making me feel so low, i'd give anything to not have to eat, for eating just not to exist. but i know i have to eat so i do. just want to feel ok about doing it again, but i dont know how, ana is playing mind games at the moment, i am trying to avoid the mirror as much as possible cuz all i see is fat, although logically i know i am not fat. arrrggghhh so frustrating. i guess people reading this understand that though.