Just checking in to say hello

I just need to write and this is a good place to do it.  You guys here are like ropes being flung over the side of a boat for me.  Thank you for being here!  I know many of you are going through the same grief as me and I want to hug you through it.  It is so strange to be suddenly alone.  And the stuff that crops up leaves your head spinning. Like, for instance, my checkbook vanished - lost or stolen I don't know.  So I closed the account and opened a new one.  Then diligently added the new account to everything I pay online.  I was proud that I handled it so well.  NOT!  Got a $25 charge for a returned payment.  The company billed my old account.  MY FAULT.  I forgot to go to the "pay from" and make the new one primary and delete the old one.  I wonder how many more charges I can look forward to.  That's just like changing from cable to Dish in order to reduce expenditures.  Bill came in much the same.  Somehow I didn't get the advertised low price.  Same thing with the Internet.  I'm so tired of all this I could scream.  If some old man came along who wanted to pay my bills I think I'd sell myself to him!
Yeah, I know, tomorrow I will feel better.  That is unless something else sneaks up on me - geeze.....