just cant focus....

Today is a blurr......I am trying really hard to focus on what needs to be done. Much to my house is needed before my parents are able to move in. But I keep loosing focus. So I am just going to take a breather and let my brain relax. My dad has his port placement tomorrow for his chemo. The doctor is hoping to start the chemotherapy within the next two weeks, if not sooner. I wish I could do this for him. Take all the scare and pain that to come away. He's so frail already and tired, I'm sad that he wont last very long.
 
I have been praying a lot ....but I am smart enough to know that if the lord wants to call my father home that he will no matter how much I pray. Then I mother will left alone. She will always have me of course, but she wont have him and I know that will be so so hard on her.