just bored

Nothing on tv to watch and so I thought I would get on the computer and see what is what.  Strange thing happened to me today at church.  One of the guys in the band said HI to me today.  I have no idea why.  I don't talk to many people there.  Just a couple of ladies I met in growth groups.  I don't go to them any more cus I have a hard time hearing people, even with the hearing aid in.  I left that in the car this morning so I really had to listen to Pastor Rick.   I get so mad at myself when I do stuff like that.  

And on Friday I received a nasty post card in a envelope.  There is a return address on it but I don't know anyone at that address.  But I believe my nephew is behind it.  Only family should have my address and no one else.  I am not listed in any phone books as far as I know.  My sister was going to text the nephew and ask about it but I have not heard anything from her.  He most likely won't ans her.  He probably got pissed at me for not speaking to him at Pixleys a couple of weeks ago.  It's his own fault.  He cheated on his wife with a ho down the street.  And now I heard he doesn't pay his child support and he only wants to see his son every other weekend.  To me that's not right.  He made that child and he should help take care of him.  I just don't get kids today.  My husband had to pay his child support, it was taken right out of his check.  I'm sure Jessica will take him to court once she gets on her feet.  I know I would.   Does the post card bother me?  Not really, I've been called worse.  What bothers me is what he is doing.  I pray for him to get smart, after all he is almost 30 yrs old now.  Grow up!!

This cough is driving me crazy.  It's really bad in the morning.  I see the Dr Friday so I hope she gives me something for it.  I'm tired of being sick.  I'm tired of a lot of things lately.  I feel my life is boring and going nowhere.  I am grateful for all the blessings the Lord has given me.  I have all I need to live.  I just wish I had love from a man in my life,  a house again and a dog to love.  All the things I had with my hubby but don't have now.  I do love my cats esp my Sassy.  But I miss having a little dog around.  But as long as I live in this place I can't have one.  Yet it's the cheapest place to live.  The Lord knows my heart desires so maybe one day.......