just another day without him
so what it's Valentine's Day, I know we would've gotten up this morning, either shared breakfast at home or gone to the neighborhood diner. Simple but sweet, year after year ... that was us. I was with my Randy for 4 years before we were married so that makes 36 Valentine's. So today is just another lonely day, a day I must survive like every day since he's been gone. Some days its weighs so much... this sorrow. I miss him, my friend, my companion, my lover, my other half. Valentine's, all I see is a broken heart. I hate when I sound so morose. I miss my hubby so much I don't know how I can go on sometimes. But then I get reminded how lucky I am ... he left me with a wonderful family. My daughter gave me a card and some candy this morning with a big hug and a few tears. He always gave her something for Valentine's. She was so thoughtful, I know she worries about me. All my kids do. I'm usually the strong one and that's not me anymore. I don't want them to worry but some days its very hard. Like today. Just another day.