just another day
it has been pretty quiet on the home front here. i found out this afternoon that i will be having jessie again for an undetermined amount of time. her dad did not know when he was going to be getting her back. i'm ok with raising her but this back and forth bullshit is for the birds. i wish he would just sign the papers over and let me raise her permanently. but no, he wont do that. it just hurts jessie so bad that he does this. just drops her off and doesn't come back until someone tells him that it looks bad for him not to have her. i have had her since her mom died 19 months ago. on and off... more on than off. sorry about the bitching but it helps to get it off my chest.
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I think you deserve a hug. Cheer up, don\'t get yourself worked up over this, it will work itself out.
((HUG)) youre a great person. nothing wrong with venting. sounds like youre 100% right on this issue.
i\'m sorry he can\'t make up his mind about whether or not he wants his child. but think about what a wonderful influence u r in jessie\'s life. u want her, u love her and u show it by being there for her, taking care of her when u can, and respecting her mother\'s legacy. i know this must be frustrating, but counter that with the positive thought that ur making a difference in her life for the better.
and don\'t apologize for bitching. that\'s wat journals r 4!! :)
thank you all so very much. i appreciate all of your advice and comments. you all have a blessed day. may life bring you a reflection of the kindness you\'ve shown me and others. thank you for your thoughtfulness.
jeanne you\'re the one thats stable for her, she\'ll see that, and one day she\'ll want to not go back to her dads. i get the frustrations that you\'re feeling as yes this isnt a good situation for her, but she\'s got you and thats all that matters.you are her rock at the moment and reconise that you are. i know that you love her to bits and that you wouldnt want anything to upset or hurt her. you can get your anger and frustrations out anytime you like its best out than in, take care and i hope that all this bullshit ceases for you. lots of love and hugs to you