Just ANGRY as usual
I feel like such a failure every time I get my period.
And then on top of that, I have to deal with the excruciating, bone-crushing pain of endometriosis that comes along with it.
All I want is a baby. Just one. If I can have more, great. If not, I won't complain. I swear I won't complain.
I seriously need to just delete my Facebook. I'm so sick of seeing everyone's ultrasound pictures. I'm sick of people complaining about their kids and how they're expensive and destructive and always getting in trouble at school. I'm sick of the girls who were a year under me in high school having their third kids. And I am SO SICK of people asking me when we're going to have a baby. I REALLY WISH I KNEW THE ANSWER, NOT THAT IT'S ANY OF YOUR FUCKING BUSINESS.
And then on top of that, I have to deal with the excruciating, bone-crushing pain of endometriosis that comes along with it.
All I want is a baby. Just one. If I can have more, great. If not, I won't complain. I swear I won't complain.
I seriously need to just delete my Facebook. I'm so sick of seeing everyone's ultrasound pictures. I'm sick of people complaining about their kids and how they're expensive and destructive and always getting in trouble at school. I'm sick of the girls who were a year under me in high school having their third kids. And I am SO SICK of people asking me when we're going to have a baby. I REALLY WISH I KNEW THE ANSWER, NOT THAT IT'S ANY OF YOUR FUCKING BUSINESS.
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kDeezy, I get it, I get it, I get it. I felt the same way when I was dealing with infertility. I stopped talking to most of my friends because they got married after me and were having kids before me. When people asked me when I was having kids, especially right after I had my miscarriage I would answer \"actually, I just had a miscarriage, but thanks so much for the sensitive question!\" It would almost make me smile to see them stumble over themselves and put their feet in their mouths trying to apologize. You should try it-it\'s good therapy.
I\'m sorry for my post about my kids having tantrums- I really didn\'t mean to make you feel bad, I was just feeling really upset and wasn\'t thinking that it would hurt anyone.
I have begun to pray for you like I said I would. I have so much faith that good will come to you. You deserve it, we all do.
Rachel
You are not a failure!! We were just unfairly given the horrible thing called endometriosis. If deleting your facebook will help to keep you from feeling this way, then do it. I know I have thought about the same thing, but I\'m addicted. On days I am feeling bad, I try to avoid it though. Anyone that posts an ultrasound or is a chronic complainer, well I just remove them from my newsfeed!!
I hope today is better! Remove the annoying people from your news feed so you don\'t have to deal with them anymore! and for the people who ask when you are going to have kids, fortunately for them, they have never been in our shoes and don\'t realize what a horrible question that is. Try and keep that in mind even though I know it is hard.
Have you heard of the Facebook app that replaces baby pictures with pictures of kittens? Look into that, it\'s great for those of us TTC.