Just an update
I can't believe I'm past 17 weeks! Time seems to be going fast, but also so slow at the same time. Hard to explain. I think I'm going through ultrasound withdrawals. I haven't had an u/s since I was 12 weeks! I had 5 u/s up to that point! Throughout this time, I've been pretty nervous but not as bad as I thought. I think it's because starting around 16 weeks I have felt a few flutters here and there and I feel like my belly is growing by the minute. That keeps me going. It's so weird because sometimes in the morning, I get undressed to get in the shower and I have mirrors EVERYWHERE, I look at myself and think I don't look that pregnant. Then I look a few minutes later and my belly looks huge. It's weird. I think I'm just trying to adjust to my constantly changing body. But I am I'm finally at least looking a little pregnant. Our next appointment is Feb. 19th. That appt is w/my regular OB. He's doing some more non-invasive testing and a regular u/s. We decided not to find out the sex at that time because that weekend I'm throwing my sister a huge 40th bday party at my house and there's too much going on. I have another appointment exactly a week later on the 26th with my high risk doc for a level II u/s and we're going to find out then. It's a Friday morning. We're going to have the doc seal it in an envelope for us. Then that evening, we're going to a fancy schmancy dinner and open the envelope together in private. We wanted this moment to be very special and we just can't fit in a nice dinner on the 19th. I know when the 19th comes around it's going to kill me, as will the whole day of the 26th, but I know the wait will be worth it! Sometimes I lay there at night and still can't believe I'm pregnant. It's still seems so surreal. Up until just recently I've been too afraid to even read books or start any planning but that is all starting to become reality now. I've finally decided to start a project soon. His mom brought us all his furniture/dressers from when he was a boy. All the pieces are stained blue and I've decided that I will refinish it, paint it white and change all the hardware and use it in the nursery. I might even rip out some drawers and replace them with baskets. It will be quite a project but I'm looking forward to it. And how sentimental that the baby gets furniture passed down from daddy!