just an entry.

i guess im just wishing things were different. i wish i could change alot about myself. and wishing i didn't struggle with things alot of other people don't have to struggle with.  and i hope my one friend isn't annoyed with me, cuz shes my only friend that i have a sort of connection with. i hope that my time with her on the 23rd goes well and hoping she will have fun with me. i guess i just wish i had more deeper connection with people. thats one of the things that im struggling with. im glad christmas is coming. im almost ready for it to get here. but after it i can't stop thinking that i don't have anything after that to look forward to. but im going to try to stay positive.  oh and im getting really hooked on the website www.pinterest.com if you want to follow me on there my user name is- amber806  i love collecting all the cool looking pictures on there. they have some good ones on there.