Just a weekly post May 17th
I have to admit my life is much better than it used to be. I have made friends and enjoy their company. I still find myself being lonely, wishing I had someone that I wanted to have in my arms. I don't really think I am desperate to have a relationship because I still have high standards. I just don't think I would meet the standards of the woman I would be interested in. I have really only met 2 girls that I thought I was compatible with and I messed those relationships up because of my insecurities. I am still working on them and I am going to take a break after my get together or date, whatever you want to call it. It is what it is. I think it will go well, it usually does. The problem lies afterwards. I usually make an ass of myself. I am definitely going to try to occupy myself so that won't happen. I didn't really start on my day planner. I was to busy making a situation on here that didn't really bother me at first fester and I focused on it until it blew out of proportion. I have to apologies to that person that I let get under my skin. I am not going to do that again. I need to focus on me and what makes me happy. I need to realize that I am fine on my own. I do have friends now so I can't really say that I am completely alone. I am going to work on that along with my day planner. I do like getting on here and helping people out if I can but I am not going to spend as much time as I have been doing that. I know that I am only going to use this site for what it's intended for, a place that will help myself resolve issues that I have and to help others. Well that's what I am going to work on.
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Proud of you, Drew
Great journal Drew. I\'m really proud of you for working on the things you want and need to work on and knowing what your priorities need to be right now. I hope you have a fun on your get together date ( or whatever you call it ) . As far as your high standards, it\'s fine to have high standards when it comes to a woman you want to have a relationship. I don\'t like you saying though that you don\'t think you would meet up to the standards of the woman you would be interested in. That, ofcourse is where you need to work on that self esteem, but you know that. you are a great guy with a big heart and so much to offer a woman. Keep working on that day planner and come here to give support and get it. I see how much support you offer to others and it\'s great. Big hugs~
gaye
I have had tons of problems with this but when I remember who I am concerning my core being it makes it a lot easier but you have to see yourself as a whole... not just what you feel are your mistakes. So you should make it a habit to list your accomplishments. As far as the lack of sleep affecting you...remind yourself you are just tired...take a breather and minute to calm yourself.