just a thought

True as life can be, I find myself at a point where everything in my past has now been proven to be fake from birth to date. I came to understand the circumstances of my birth by reading "Philomena", a true representation of my adoption. Far from what I was told; My adopted sister took me out of her life after our abusive alcoholic mother died; I found that my adopted parents were living a complete  lie, Dad, the kindest and most gentle person I have ever known was gay and my adopted mother was an abusive alcoholic slut. I have only love and respect for my father, my mother had a wonderful family who taught me love, manners, and street sense.The to find that the true love of my life, father of my son, died four years ago suddenly and was Jewish, not Catholic. I have no preference for the religious beliefs of anyone but honesty would have been nice.  Failed marriages brought me four wonderful children and now eight grandchildren, the Lord has blessed me with a large family.
Every support site I have joined, as I said in my profile had married couples who con not relate to single women. And the others were men who would chat for a few and then solicit sex. I am a semi-retired healthcare executive with many degrees and accomplishments in my life. I need support to find a way to have inner peace and find relationships that are based in friendship. Feedback would be grand.