Just a ramble of what I'm feeling right now...

So I'm off sick this week from work, chest infection amoung other things. And I have my period which is never a good time for me. And I'm glad I'm off cos while I'm not horribly sick I could have slogged through. But the Doctor thought I should stay off so I ain't gonna argue cos it means I can rest. I hate my job so I'm glad I don't have to be back till next Monday. But I feel guilty about it too. Guilty because my house is a mess cos all I've been doing is sleeping. Guilty cos my partner still has to go to work and he goes alot when he's not %100. guilty cos he's been doing basic house work and working and I've been doing not much. Guilty cos my mum who can't Stand her job always seems annoyed at me When I have time off. I just have guilt issues in general. I feel awful for nearly everything. Especially if I'm something I want or something the way I want to and it's not What the other person wants end up feeling bad so I can't enjoy what I'm doing. And if do it their way I'm unhappy also. I think it has a lot to do with my mum using guilt on me when I was younger. I also think i hace too much empathy. I cant stand to see ANY one unhappy. Even people I don't even really know. But especially my love ones. Even if they are the one bring horrible to me. I can't do it back. To see sadness on someone elses face it breaks my heart. So no matter what I do I'm the one that's upset...