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So today i dont feel to bad other than shaking a little here and there. Being without my meds makes me feel as if im a total different person even tho its feel that why when im on my meds. The med i got got off of worked wonders for me in being able to go out in public and not have as many problems as when im not on them. I just been doing work to a project i been building. i I tore a riding lawnmower apart and build a lowrider dragster mower itll never cut grass again but thats not the reason i got for lol. Find myself smoking weed more than i had been but as long as it keeps me from slipping again i dont care. Whating on my hemp oils to come in. But yea just not really feeling myself lately My mind is screwed up cant answer certain things at times forgetting apointments, just about everything. done had to stop 3 or 4 times this morning while working on that thing cause for got what i was doing and since off my meds my mood is all screwed up the people at my I.O.P. class says its like that time of the month for the lady lol i just laugh along cause there are rite lol but im guy. My be getting a new doctor and everything new place called WellBrook or something said its more costly there but ill get all the services i need and have things looked at more closely. I just dont know anymore. Wish i had more friends and someone around alot i could talk to as well. My body and mental state both are just tired and needs a major fix. Trying to get in to court sooner as well to see the judge about getting off probation. I have been on 2yr sentence for 6yrs and i have served my time every day and also this month just paid 2,195.70 for restituton which once thats paid my probation is done i just have to have a judge sign off on it. My lawyer hasnt answered in a week i may just go up there my self and see the judge ive studied law and i know i could handle it better than her she acts like she doesnt know anything. but thats all for now gotta do a little more work on this thing while i can.
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you always have me as a friend to chat on even when having your period we can cry together. i usual start on 17th of month btw. if i hear clear you are just stoning now and staying away from heavy stuffy. my daily meds are -Lexapro 20mg Trileptal 600mg Risperdal 2mg Trazodone 200mg Hydroxyzine 50mg Seroquel 50mg Ritalin 50mg and
Provigil 100mg.. i would crazier for sure if clean.
hope you can bail probie, i am held tightly by him to november 2020 if no additional inconveniences.. he can get extended too easy so i so sweet at weekly meetings. dress hot and so smiley it kills me. husband likes me hang tightly to home and baby so no temptation towards me be naughty. i exercise much and love myself to busy. try avoiding to much chat with guys and be too excited.
glad hear from you and you are behaving well. i am good girl today sleep much and zero cocaine so far. husband home half hour so he will keep me out of trouble till tomorrow anyway.
lol yea i had my first relapse this past weekend first in 6 years. felt good atm but the next day didnt go so great. People at me I.O.P. class really look up to me cant figure why and then you and other people on here just feels weird but kinda in a good way. Never had that happen other than little kids back in my selling days was like i want to be just like you when i get older lol i kinda miss those but dont at the same. Im suppossed to be dead. Ill post more about that issue later today or my morning meditation post one of the 2 but im really glad to have you as a friend ...... always put a smile on my face thanks so so much
i enjoy everything you post. have weakness for strong aggressive men as well you know.
thrilled you are glad i am friendly on you. i usual avoid hairy faced guys but you so incredibly interesting is a turn on for me to study you. my husband say i look like little woman but have actions of children even my voice sounds like little girl.
my first sober all day little shaking but husband on way to me so he will keep me focused till he let me sleep.
lol i normally shave just been rough lately and to lazy to shave lol but im getting ready for I.O.P. i take my phone when i go so i can post while im there at times lol getting a 2 for one double group therapy lol
If either of you ever get the chance to watch Thomas "Hollywood" Henderson's video, please do. Short but powerful story.
ok simpsonsOK ill check that out here in a few on the way to group ill let you know how it is
Hey thanks for the video it was great he has more than one of those ....great videos
He made that one for everyone, the rest are also great but made for those serving time. Yep, they are all great. Hugs.
i watch Thomas but cannot relate myself to all his problems. i have always been cared for by others never really ever worked for a living. i just want sober to be good wife and mom. hope no cheating if sober but still get excited by handsome men that appreciate me so doubtful sober will cure me for this
Bunny. hoping and trying means likely not going to happen. I will, or I will not, means you are serious about reaching a goal. Scotty is a good man. Why are you trying to seduce him? or others? You have more value than that. I will be a good wife and mother; I will not cheat; I will accept that men who only appreciate me for being sexy and dressing hot are seeing me as ………. You can be so much more than this. Sober let's you be the wonderful woman you could be.
SimpsonOK, I already have a shrink, husband and PO. Where do you get off lecturing me or deciding what i think. Sounds like you afraid of competition in seducing Scotty. I believe he is old and wise enough to make correct judgments without your loving advice and interference as well as i am.
Please mind your own business not mine
Sorry to have offended you.
SimpsonOK - Apology Accepted. Thank you very much