Just a Good Month
I'm feeling good again today. I'm surprised I have been feeling this good for this long, but I know it's a good thing. How can it be bad if I'm not hypomanic? I've been getting good sleep lately, and my thoughts are not racing or anything. I go back and volunteer again tomorrow, and I know that's going to go well again as well. I've been tired lately, but other than that I've been doing very well. I did drink some coffee today because I woke up with a migraine, which has been happening the past couple of days. I don't know what's causing the migraines, but I just take a bit of Excedrin and they go away. That, or if it's the early morning (sometimes I wake up with them at 5am) I just take some Tylenol and aspirin instead so I don't have to worry about the caffeine in the Excedrin. That, and Tylenol and aspirin are cheaper to buy than Excedrin, so I prefer to go that route anyway. If my migraine gets bad enough, I do have Immitrex I can take, but I haven't gotten to that point yet. I just take some painkillers and by the time I wake up again it's gone.
I've been feeling so good lately I've been able to interact a bit on my old forums. I haven't been to them in a while since I haven't felt up to putting on a cheerful face and talking to people, or for a while I just didn't have any interest in anything. Now I have the energy and I feel good enough to interact with people and I can be my happy old self again. It feels so good, let me tell you. I miss being the fun, lighthearted person I know I can be. Geo and I were joking around today, and that was fun too. I accidentally scared him today while he was making breakfast, and so he tried to get me back later while I was talking on the phone. I'm not going to tell him, but he didn't actually scare me. I heard him get up and come to the room, so I knew he was there. I sat up quick when he thumped on the wall to make him think he scared me so he would quit trying lol! If not, he's going to keep on trying until he does scare me, and I don't like him trying to scare me. He loves it, though, so I tolerate it. I wasn't trying to scare him earlier, though, he was just cooking breakfast and had the kitchen fan on so he didn't hear me walk up to the door. I'm just in a good mood, so I can deal with the joking around in a good mood and not make the worst of it. Sometimes I don't deal with it well and get mad at him if I'm in a bad mood. I can deal with things a lot better in a good mood.
Today was a pretty slow day. I did get a bunch of phone calls, from friends and my stepdad, and it was nice to have the phone ringing for me and have it not be bills lol. I turned off the forwarding on my home phone so right now I only get direct calls to my line (I have a forwarding number I give out to everyone) so my phone only rings if it's AT&T or someone I know. I got put on the do not call list for AT&T so hopefully the calls will stop soon. I talked to my friend Kate for about 45 minutes, it was nice to hear her doing so well. Then I called my friend Jon after he sent me an IM on Facebook, and talked to him for a bit before he crashed. A bit later, my stepdad called and we talked for about a half hour. My stepdad is leaving to Italy on Wednesday, so I'm probably going to talk to him one more time before he leaves, and then I don't get to talk to him for a couple weeks. I will miss him while he's gone, but at the same time I hope he has fun on his trip. I wish I was going with them, but I can't afford it and I had no way of knowing that I would be up to it now. I tried going to England with them a couple years back, but I had to back out at the last minute since I wasn't mentally up for making the trip. I'm sad I had to do that, but I know it was the right decision. It was supposed to be my graduation present, and I had to turn it down. I really felt like crap for that, but I didn't have a choice.
Anyway, moving on. Food today was okay... I was in my calorie range, but not good calories again. I had some leftover pizza for breakfast and lunch, and then regular dinner. I'm glad the pizza is gone now, so I don't have to worry about that anymore. Stress was low today, I didn't think about that movie too much today and there was nothing else to really stress me out. Mood has been good still, and sleep was good- 12 hours with no nap. I also found out I lost 1 pound over the last 2 weeks, including when I went on vacation, so that's awesome as well!
I've been feeling so good lately I've been able to interact a bit on my old forums. I haven't been to them in a while since I haven't felt up to putting on a cheerful face and talking to people, or for a while I just didn't have any interest in anything. Now I have the energy and I feel good enough to interact with people and I can be my happy old self again. It feels so good, let me tell you. I miss being the fun, lighthearted person I know I can be. Geo and I were joking around today, and that was fun too. I accidentally scared him today while he was making breakfast, and so he tried to get me back later while I was talking on the phone. I'm not going to tell him, but he didn't actually scare me. I heard him get up and come to the room, so I knew he was there. I sat up quick when he thumped on the wall to make him think he scared me so he would quit trying lol! If not, he's going to keep on trying until he does scare me, and I don't like him trying to scare me. He loves it, though, so I tolerate it. I wasn't trying to scare him earlier, though, he was just cooking breakfast and had the kitchen fan on so he didn't hear me walk up to the door. I'm just in a good mood, so I can deal with the joking around in a good mood and not make the worst of it. Sometimes I don't deal with it well and get mad at him if I'm in a bad mood. I can deal with things a lot better in a good mood.
Today was a pretty slow day. I did get a bunch of phone calls, from friends and my stepdad, and it was nice to have the phone ringing for me and have it not be bills lol. I turned off the forwarding on my home phone so right now I only get direct calls to my line (I have a forwarding number I give out to everyone) so my phone only rings if it's AT&T or someone I know. I got put on the do not call list for AT&T so hopefully the calls will stop soon. I talked to my friend Kate for about 45 minutes, it was nice to hear her doing so well. Then I called my friend Jon after he sent me an IM on Facebook, and talked to him for a bit before he crashed. A bit later, my stepdad called and we talked for about a half hour. My stepdad is leaving to Italy on Wednesday, so I'm probably going to talk to him one more time before he leaves, and then I don't get to talk to him for a couple weeks. I will miss him while he's gone, but at the same time I hope he has fun on his trip. I wish I was going with them, but I can't afford it and I had no way of knowing that I would be up to it now. I tried going to England with them a couple years back, but I had to back out at the last minute since I wasn't mentally up for making the trip. I'm sad I had to do that, but I know it was the right decision. It was supposed to be my graduation present, and I had to turn it down. I really felt like crap for that, but I didn't have a choice.
Anyway, moving on. Food today was okay... I was in my calorie range, but not good calories again. I had some leftover pizza for breakfast and lunch, and then regular dinner. I'm glad the pizza is gone now, so I don't have to worry about that anymore. Stress was low today, I didn't think about that movie too much today and there was nothing else to really stress me out. Mood has been good still, and sleep was good- 12 hours with no nap. I also found out I lost 1 pound over the last 2 weeks, including when I went on vacation, so that's awesome as well!
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