Just a general update
Well first thing, Ill be 20 weeks friday!!! Can someone please tell me where the time has gone. Seriously, It still seems like I just found out. This little girl is moving up a storm. I feel her all the time and Dh can feel her from the outside now also. WOW only 20 more weeks. Half way there. I hope it goes by slower than the first 20. I am really trying to soak up this time with Ian. He is 20 months. In 4 month she will be 2. I am so not ready for that. I love him so much and just want to keep him my baby a little longer. I really cherish our time together. I have been trying really hard to just enjoy everything. He is so smart and funny. He has been so loving and sweet. It’s a whole new side of him. I don’t know if he is sensing a change or what. He crawls on my lap and puts my arms around him. I love my baby. I cant believe he will be 2. I don’t see how big he is unless its in a picture. I see a picture of him and im like OH my GOD!!! He is huge. I am actually moving him up in church to the 2 year old room .HE is just to big for the 0-23 month. The have to many little baby and he is a ready for the 2 year old class. We played outside this morning before it got to hot. He has a cozy coupe that looks like a police car. We push/drive it all over. We also play with side walk chalk. He thinks you can write all over mommy with it. We are working on that. The we shared a popsicle. It was a good day. He has been super fussy because he is cutting 4 teeth right now. His last 4 baby teeth. L im over looking the grouchiness as best I can.
I got the result of my ultrasound back and its not the gallbladder its my kidney. You don’t need your gallbladder but you do need your kidneys!! I have some stones and a obstruction. My PCP referred me to a specialist. The earliest they can get me in is next Thursday. I hope I will be ok until then. Im a little nervous about what the obstruction is. Dr. Google said it could be a tumor. Of course I always think worst case scenario. But I have been feeling pain free for a few days.
I guess I would say that me and dh are doing a little better. Im just so frustrated and don’t know how to move pass it. Its been so long and so many broken promises told over and over. Im not sure how to get pass this. I want a better marriage. My children deserve to have a better marriage for their parents. Ive been praying and hope that GOD can change my heart. This is not what I imagined as a little girl. I know this is a rough patch and we will be better as a couple and stronger as a couple because of it. Im still praying we get back home soon. Open transfers are suppose to come out in early October and we should now by December/January. Then we would move around April. Our lease is up in april so that would be perfect. I don’t know what I will do if we don’t get the transfer. I don’t honestly think I can do it anymore out here. Its not mentally healthy for me. Anyone who knows me would describe me a s people person first and for most. But I am so isolated out here and have like 2 friends. And they are “mom” friends. Not like friend friend. My Ds sisters are the only ones that know what is going on in my life. They are the only ones I can talk to and get opinions and support. I love that but I also need shoulders to cry on and girl friends to laugh with. So please pray we get the transfer. I told james I don’t want to live in this house if we don’t get the transfer. I have not decorated it at all or hung a single picture in anticipation of getting to go back home.
I have been budgeting hard core. I have been trying so hard to get us financially on track. Ever since I came clean with DH about our finances I have felt better. Knowing he is on the same page as me is awesome. I can say we are broke and know he wont be spending money. We have gotten in to it a little because we have went over every thing then a week later he asks the same questions and gets upset all over again. We have financial goals and he doesn’t understand that if we don’t set them we wont make them. We have to budget in savings and stuff. I feel like he is so negative and doesn’t support me or offer any positive feed back. Everything is so negative. But I see a light at the end of the tunnel. We have 2 CC and one loan. We should have one cc ($1600) paid off by November Then the other CC (4k) will hopefully be paid off in 18 months. Then our loan will hopefully be paid off in 30 months. All of these paid off years ahead of time. I hope that everything but the houses are paid off in 3 years. That means we will only have our 2 house payments when Ian starts school. We want to send him to a private Christian school and we can easily afford it if everything goes according to plan. Im hoping to save up enough in cash to pay for all our moving expenses as that is where we seem to get into a lot of cc debt from. When we get our transfer we will move in with Dh’s parents while we look for a new house to buy. We have great tenants in our house now and they are paying our rent, taxes and insurance. So it works great for us. We were never planning on having an investment property but its working for us. I saw a house in our neighborhood just went on the market for $126k. I felt sick. We payed 151k and owe 140k. It may be a short sale though. Just for fun I was looking on line at houses for sale in the area we want. We can get a pretty nice 2500+ square foot house for under 150k. We have a 225k budget but I see no reason to go that high. l I rather put in the hardwood floors and granite counter tops myself for 10k than spend an extra 50k for it in a mortgage. I have done our budget till april including when we have the baby and holidays. So there shouldn’t be any surprises. I budgeted a huge grocery bill for December so that in January I wont have to think about shopping right after having a baby. I love coupons and I plan to stock pile as much as possible. We have been living out of our freezer and pantry to try to catch up and get a little ahead with bills. I budgeted only $200 for the month of august. SO far so good. Luckily my freezer was very well stocked. Im talking filet minton and pork tenderloins ect. I will be buying another family box in September for the month of September. That means I will have $250 for produce, milk, bread and things like that. I am hoping a family box and a big bag of frozen skinless chicken breast can last us 1 ½ months. When James goes out of town I usually eat cereal or a sandwich for dinner. I don’t feel like cooking for just me lol. So that helps cut down. Ian rarely eats what we do. He has about 7 things he eats regularly. We keep trying new things but the texture of new things freaks him out. He doesn’t like to try new things. He is just like his dad!
I got the result of my ultrasound back and its not the gallbladder its my kidney. You don’t need your gallbladder but you do need your kidneys!! I have some stones and a obstruction. My PCP referred me to a specialist. The earliest they can get me in is next Thursday. I hope I will be ok until then. Im a little nervous about what the obstruction is. Dr. Google said it could be a tumor. Of course I always think worst case scenario. But I have been feeling pain free for a few days.
I guess I would say that me and dh are doing a little better. Im just so frustrated and don’t know how to move pass it. Its been so long and so many broken promises told over and over. Im not sure how to get pass this. I want a better marriage. My children deserve to have a better marriage for their parents. Ive been praying and hope that GOD can change my heart. This is not what I imagined as a little girl. I know this is a rough patch and we will be better as a couple and stronger as a couple because of it. Im still praying we get back home soon. Open transfers are suppose to come out in early October and we should now by December/January. Then we would move around April. Our lease is up in april so that would be perfect. I don’t know what I will do if we don’t get the transfer. I don’t honestly think I can do it anymore out here. Its not mentally healthy for me. Anyone who knows me would describe me a s people person first and for most. But I am so isolated out here and have like 2 friends. And they are “mom” friends. Not like friend friend. My Ds sisters are the only ones that know what is going on in my life. They are the only ones I can talk to and get opinions and support. I love that but I also need shoulders to cry on and girl friends to laugh with. So please pray we get the transfer. I told james I don’t want to live in this house if we don’t get the transfer. I have not decorated it at all or hung a single picture in anticipation of getting to go back home.
I have been budgeting hard core. I have been trying so hard to get us financially on track. Ever since I came clean with DH about our finances I have felt better. Knowing he is on the same page as me is awesome. I can say we are broke and know he wont be spending money. We have gotten in to it a little because we have went over every thing then a week later he asks the same questions and gets upset all over again. We have financial goals and he doesn’t understand that if we don’t set them we wont make them. We have to budget in savings and stuff. I feel like he is so negative and doesn’t support me or offer any positive feed back. Everything is so negative. But I see a light at the end of the tunnel. We have 2 CC and one loan. We should have one cc ($1600) paid off by November Then the other CC (4k) will hopefully be paid off in 18 months. Then our loan will hopefully be paid off in 30 months. All of these paid off years ahead of time. I hope that everything but the houses are paid off in 3 years. That means we will only have our 2 house payments when Ian starts school. We want to send him to a private Christian school and we can easily afford it if everything goes according to plan. Im hoping to save up enough in cash to pay for all our moving expenses as that is where we seem to get into a lot of cc debt from. When we get our transfer we will move in with Dh’s parents while we look for a new house to buy. We have great tenants in our house now and they are paying our rent, taxes and insurance. So it works great for us. We were never planning on having an investment property but its working for us. I saw a house in our neighborhood just went on the market for $126k. I felt sick. We payed 151k and owe 140k. It may be a short sale though. Just for fun I was looking on line at houses for sale in the area we want. We can get a pretty nice 2500+ square foot house for under 150k. We have a 225k budget but I see no reason to go that high. l I rather put in the hardwood floors and granite counter tops myself for 10k than spend an extra 50k for it in a mortgage. I have done our budget till april including when we have the baby and holidays. So there shouldn’t be any surprises. I budgeted a huge grocery bill for December so that in January I wont have to think about shopping right after having a baby. I love coupons and I plan to stock pile as much as possible. We have been living out of our freezer and pantry to try to catch up and get a little ahead with bills. I budgeted only $200 for the month of august. SO far so good. Luckily my freezer was very well stocked. Im talking filet minton and pork tenderloins ect. I will be buying another family box in September for the month of September. That means I will have $250 for produce, milk, bread and things like that. I am hoping a family box and a big bag of frozen skinless chicken breast can last us 1 ½ months. When James goes out of town I usually eat cereal or a sandwich for dinner. I don’t feel like cooking for just me lol. So that helps cut down. Ian rarely eats what we do. He has about 7 things he eats regularly. We keep trying new things but the texture of new things freaks him out. He doesn’t like to try new things. He is just like his dad!
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