Just a big update

Yeah so sorry friends, I haven't been writing. Well on the 21st A guy from my school asked me out. I never thought it was possible for someone to like me that wasn't a creep. I told him I needed some time to get to know him first but I wasn't saying no. So I got to know him and as it turns out I REALLY like him. So on March 1st I told him yes and he has made me feel so much better ever since. He is an awesome guy and has raised my self worth tremendously. I am afraid to get to close tho because no one is forever but I really like him so I'm not sure how possible that is. With that I have bad news. The body dismorphic disorder is on high and I have been make myself throw up almost every night. Every once in a while it doesn't work but I just don't eat a whole lot the next day. Haven't felt like cutting in a while and it has almost been a month and 2 weeks. So there you guys go now you are up to date.