Just sad

It's been a rough week at work.  Christmas is always so hard, being in retail.  I'm a bakery manager, and the hours just get longer and longer.  I work more hours than any of the other managers, but what do I have to look forward to at home?  One of my workers called off, earlier in the week and it's hard to catch up, when you are already behind.  They have been remodeling also, and that put me behind also.  The owner is very happy with my work, but the manager is a young hyper nervous guy, that hovers around wanting more.  He always says, things look good by the end of the day, but he gets on my nerves sometimes.
I came home and for a split second thought my husband was home waiting for me.  That's when the saddness started.  I started reading some of the posts and I think I got more depressed.  On the way home I stopped and bought a silly Christmas hat and was actually singing along with a Christmas song.  I used to sing along with all the songs, but my heart hasn't been into it lately.
It only takes a second for all the memories to flood back.  To miss him, to want him, to make all this pain go away.
Going to bed, long day tomorrow.
Paula