June 13

Yesterday we went to Riverside National Cemetery to bury Pat's ashes.  It was impressive and Pat's brother had a nice talk.  I am so glad it is over.  It seemed to bring everything up that I try not to think about.  I haven't been able to write I've been crying a lot.  Hopefully I can start again.  I miss him so much.  I try to keep busy, tv, games online, selling stuff, but thoughts of him, and trying to imagine him make me cry.  I wish I had saved one of his many messages on the answering machine.  Oh how I miss his morning, come home and goodnight kisses.  Oh how I miss his smile.  This was a bad idea, now I'm crying again