June 2024

Well my calendar for this month is interesting June 1st I went to the fitting in Baltimore and I was glad that I didn't have any issues by not having my name on the list. I am glad that I was chosen by a designer, even though it was the last one I was just glad that I was picked and her name is Zoey of all names. I was thinking about that name when I was choosing one when I transitioned. But I'm glad that she chose me.

I am still dealing with issues at work being Arby's I still feel like I am being used working Sundays 12 noon till after mid-night. I feel that I am being taken advantage of like on June 9th she wants me to come in to close so Kelly doesn't have to, I just can't help it if she can't find anyone to replace a couple crew people and a manager. I just needed the time away from there to get my mind in place just to get through the summer. Catch up on some sleep. Plus with the hours she is giving me on Sunday doesn't allow me to attend church.

Today I have a photo shoot in Atlantic City at the Resorts I hope that goes well for me, to expand my portfolio. One of the ladies who works for the organization mentioned to me that I should try on a different color wig so I am going to go with the chestnut brown 30" wig to see if it make any difference. With this shoot I am going to add more photos to my Instagram page. Plus for my competition in November. I just don't know anymore I went for the AC Fashion Week and I had one of the girls ask me how it went and my reply was that they turned down a talent which didn't bother but it did because I frackin stumbled on the second run and couldn't keep a straight face, but earlier I had a conversation about my ankle and the girl said don't stumble because your not completely healed of all things to say to me as if she would just have said don't cut yourself as I would end up doing it. I was fuming mad that I just want to say Fuck this shit. But of course they had to say that they have two newbies but of course they took the other one which made me more mad. Daniel butted in saying to me that hey you got in the Baltimore's fashion week without being called a newbie. But then again I do have another opportunity next Sunday but I think Arby's is going to have a say which sucks. I am getting tired of working for a place at minimum wage for being there 10 years and putting up with the BS on times in drive thru including the customers. Well Walmart isn’t any better running into people that don't understand or speak English. The communication barrier because they are illegal immigrants from el Salvador. They shouldn't be allowed in this country, but who am I even though most of them are ignorant and getting pregnant. I feel like that I am at a road block with my career as I feel this Susan is keeping me from getting this photoshoot done. I didn't have a head shot to hand in for the audition for AC Fashion show and they don't accept email's. I feel that I will be better off with my own professional photos even though I have the one's from apex but Susan don't like any of them. But for me to do the AC Beach shoot I ended up paying $500 for it just for her to have a room at the Claridge Casino! So far a week has gone by and no photo's. If I don't hear from her in the next week, I am going to say something and I am going to mention when am I going to have my other shoot that I paid for with my classes, when am I going to have that done? It's already going on 5 month and no portfolio? I was embarrassed that I didn't have one to give the judges for AC Fashion Week, maybe that was another reason why I didn't get it and it will be to late to get one done from zazzel. Now I have to go through my credit card statements to see if there where any additional payment I made for competition in November. I am going to try my best to get in next Sunday. Even if I have to call out to go and I won't work later like I did before. I feel that Kelly is taking advantage of me.

as June continues.