June 20,2020

Ten months on hormone Theropy I am still developing in some aspect in my life, breasts are slowing down in their growth as I do not feel the tingle sensation as I previously did. My skin is now soft to the touch and it feels great that I can not imagine how my skin shows off the radiant look that it sometimes I think it glows and shakes a little like a lady. I try to use that to distract myself from the disappointments of my family but it only works a short time.

I have moved closer in getting some progress.

Clearing my name I just got a letter from legal aid that a lawyer was assigned to me to handle my case, so far I have left a message on his machine but with no response back. I do realize that the covid - 19 still ravages the world and I pray that I will not contract the virus.

This month I have made some accomplishments and one of them is that I spoke to Vanne  but I feel that he will be like Gabby, speaking about gabby I have been informed that I will not be house sitting while she is away, I had hoped that she would heed my advice as I pray to God that she does not contract the virus as it would be a hard road to travel if she does. I will be heart broken if something ever happened to her.

Merle still reminds me of the hardship she is enduring after I left the house but she won't realize the cause and blames me for all the heartache. As she tells me over the phone that I kept on hitting her on the back of the head with a book, of all things, if I ever did I would have remember doing it and would have been placed in jail.

This month as I am nearing the end of the month several good things are coming into play.

I am going to submit to the court my papers to change my name, I just hope I filled them out correctly as I will leave a message to have them call me back so I know that I did. As for my letters I do have an appointment with Dr. Damon to obtain a second letter needed but I do not know how to come up with 165 to pay for it but Casey tells me that he can place his signature on Dr. Woods letter if he can I will go ahead and let him sign it as I move a little closer to getting my bottom surgery done , just waiting on Pa. to open up the elective surgery procedure and get a date to when I can have it done, I still hope it will be before the end of the year as it will help me out considerably.

I put off on buying a car as I think I can afford it but I think it will be advisable to wait until after the surgery. I hope that I can accomplish it as my adventure goes to a new level.

 in the meantime I have a biological female that is interested in meeting but I do not see it as such just a way to get money from me, I would like to meet her , but I am thinking cautiously , don’t know if I should do it or not.

One more thing that I almost forgot to mention is that I am getting weened off of my blood pressure medicine because it has been running low like 90/60 which is to low for my taste making me feel dizzy sometimes that I feel like im about to pass out,

I am back to work which happen June 1st, it has been a rough 3 weeks as my body aches pretty much every day if its not the ankle it my whole leg or back. But it is decreasing as time goes on.