June 18th,2008

I have decided when I get the rebate check to start planning a vacation.I havent had a vacation inf 4 years and I am getting looney.I do stuff everyday when it comes to the house and when I do,,I am usually finished by 9.I have tried to be postive during this ordeal.And I havent cried in two days and I do not know what to do.I try to keep the house nice and clean,like my late mother.But Brad very seldome notices and today he left being depressed.He hasnt spoken to me since last night.When this happen,he starts drinking and life with him is like a roller coaster.And to everyone who is coming to seattle and contact me please do me a favor.Number one-please have a place to stay.My house is small and I do not have the room.I cannot make my house into a den and you have to have a hotel room.Number two-please be prepared and use theMetro bus system here.The gas here is 4.15 a gallon and Brad cannot drive for 2 years.Our cars are sitting in the driveway and thats where they will stay.Under no circumstances are you going to drive the cars.We have got rental cars here and if you look..they are cheap.Number three-if you do come over..please mind your business.You are absolutely not allowed to use my computer at all.We have got a great deal of Wi-Fi cafes here and where you can buy Internet time for 4.99 for 10 minutes to get your e-mail.But you are not using mine and that means my phone,cell phone or bathroom too.And if this attittude upsets you.Go back watching Mr.Rodgers.He was a very good performer and that is all he was.You see my dear friend,you are a person and every person to me is an individual.But you my dear are not special and  if you think you are..then lets end the friendship.I do not need anyone who has an inflated concept of themselves.We have had enough of this with GW and I cannot wait until November ..because I am going to vote him and all of his cronies out of the White House.The Republicans have ruined our economy and they know it.Who do you think caused this mess that we are in? And why should I a paying taxpayer bail you out of this housing crisis? You brought something that you could not afford and went into debt all because of it.And can you tell me this-what is the big deal of having a house?Please tell us.We are renting this house and it is our home,but it is not worth the price that they want here.Eveyday in this house it is always something and at 60,I cannot be fussy.I will never live in an apartment again and I love this house..but it is a lot of worth and a lot of money and here in seattle..I cannot get a job.The jobs here are getting scared and i cannot start over.And I want everyone to know that at 60,I am truly alone.Everyone that I have liked and loved are gone and I like Thomas WOlfe stated..I can never go home again.And everyone who said that friends are most important in life-please think.I need money more then ever now and my friends here do not  have it.And when everyone is gone,Money will stay with you and after 50,dear kiddies..you need money more then ever.And if is say this.people say that I am greedy.Far from it.These people are living in a glass house.You need a great deal of money now to survive.ANd everyday I cry about Frank and I cry for nearly half an hour.Yet no therapist can see me..because of money and that idiot of Frank Sims stated in time that there will no funding for mental health ser vices here and all over the country..I want to say this..Thanks GW for creating this mess.Thanks !