June 10, 2008 11:02 am

I am getting ready for my interview at 1:00 today. I am interviewing for a private Kindergarten class. If I get this, I am that much closer to getting my license through the state of Colorado. I am very nervous because it is a daycare that is in the same building as a daycare that I worked at before and I did not leave there on good terms. But it is a different daycare. So I am hoping that it doesn't become a problem. I am also nervous because I haven't interviewed for a job in almost 3 years. My ex said that I should not worry about it at all since I have been on the other side of the interview table and should just look at it from that perspective. I know the mind of the interviewer because I have been there and know what people are looking for in the realm of Early Child Development. I am still very nervous. What if my weight is a factor here? That really scares me. And what if my tattoos are too visible? I guess I just need to look at this as if God wants me to be there it will happen. I am still nervous. I will be in a building that I loved working in and was for a very long time. I am sure that memories are gonna come flooding back. When it comes to the exercising, I walked around the mall for about 2 hours yesterday and yes I did work up a sweat. So I am counting that as 1 mile, even though I didn't really measure. Does it still count, aikijedi?  Last night, I felt very depressed. I am not really sure why. My sister told me yesterday that she is pregnant again and I guess that made me sad that I am not in a place in my life that I really wish I was, like married and having another child. So I started to really miss my ex, which has been happening for the last couple weeks, but it just got worse. I talked on the phone with him and it was a nice conversation, but I cried so much after getting off the phone. I did tell him that I miss him a lot and he didn't say it back so I guess that kind of broke my heart. But then about 10 minutes later he sent me a text that said "Miss you, too!" So that really confused me. Is he just having a hard time saying it to me or is he scared or what? I am not sure that I even really want to go back there anyway. I just don't know Anyway, I have to start getting lunches around for the kids and then I will be leaving for my interview. I will let you all know how it goes.