july comp

i just got my july comp in the mail, i took it, like i took june's and threw in the garbage, if i looked it would bother me, not enough to go gambling but the amount they offer me reminds me of the countless 1000's i lost, that sucks, i want that money back so badly, but i'll be ok,  now that its sunday, 33 days free, the last week of school, i know i'll make it to 40 days, at some point i want to just live and stop counting, i get it now, i get that i cant gamble, it hurts too much, it does, bangs against my brain like a insane cycle of pain....
 
why would i even want to?  thats the weird part I CANT STAND IT, yet im still slightly afraid it will overpower me?
 
just rambling....happy days ahead!

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itsjustmeagain
itsjustmeagain

hate my f#$^*& job, wish i did something different, more fulfilling, now im seeing my life as a real chance to accomplish things, ace of pentacles today, says im getting a gift ....
Cherbear2012
Cherbear2012

Call the casino\'s and ask to get off their mailing lists. I did it and they took a while to stop but now I don\'t have to look at that crap and it helps!