July 29, 2015
Well, Monday will mark 10 months since you have been gone Brownie. I must admit it has been 10 months of pure misery. I wonder when it will get better. I haven't made any big decisions yet on what to do with the house. It's just so big and so expensive to keep up. I guess I will be stuck here through the winter due to having to get things done before I can put it on the market. Oh sigh I will cry if I move and cry if I don't. I'm in a no win situation. Guide me please if you have the power to. Know I love you and miss you more then words can say. I'm sorry I got mad and screamed at your ashes the other day. I am just so sad you left I don't know how to handle it. Grief is a terrible thing. Oh God, please help me. Linda
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I am sorry to say this and its not meant disrespectful at all but I had to laugh when you shouted at his ashes. SO BEEN THERE done that every time something on our 5 acres or 4 bedrm home needs something fixed that costs or I can not fix. NOW I am facing a dry well due to drought conditions in our area...the river feeds our wells and its down to nothing.
I think the shouting helps - and I also feel GOD knows and accepts all of our frustration and sadness towards their now un earthy soul or body. Hugs
I don\'t mind you laughing at me shouting at his ashes. It is kinda funny. I laughed myself later. I\'m glad it gave you a laugh. If he can hear me he probably thinks I have lost my mind. Sometime I think I have. I\'m sorry for your dry well. That must be awful. I know about the house issues to. It is always something. All we can do is pray that God helps us. I just am having a hard time adjusting to this \"alone\" issue. That\'s one thing I don\'t know how I will ever adjust to. Guess I don\'t have a choice. You take care. (((Hugs)))