July 25th 2013

Hi all its been months since I have written, I should have vented before but I did not. The past several months have been surprising and debilatating.  While work is starting to come in slowely, its still been hand to mouth on the most part. Recieved a call from the oldest some time back requesting POW that his mother (my X) left at the house and after explaining I did not have it , i .... took a shot, told him that it was discusting that he called about this when in fact he never calles his younger brother...ever  .  The threat to burn down the house and beat me  ended the call.  The x's drivers lic appeared in the mail, no address on the envelope just the lic with a hole punched in it, roughly the child support ended, the x vanished for some time then would appear roaming the neibourhood. 
I have had and still have emotional tearful times to myself, but i I am still very much trying to get ahead. My son start his last year in highschool and is looking foward to it.. wow the time has gone. He wants to go to college and yet is stuck on a very needy girlfriend. so Hoping he will move on  and meet new constructive friends.
I started a  friendship with an old girlfriend, and it was going ok untill she wanted it to be full on. I think its time for me, I did learn some of my triggers and what I will accept and what I will not. I now like some space and not rushed into situations. I like peace and simplicity. That seems to work nicely for me.
Again thank you all for being there for me durrring the hardest time of my life...Thanks