July 2025

Another interesting month as some of it was a fact finding mission. As for my career I finally managed to get into the set of Dexter Resurrection. where my car was in the show I don't what episode I am in but I am waiting patiently. I did send my kids birthday cards only to get yelled at from Merle because I wrote Katlin's name wrong even though I don't know how to spell her last name. So I just let it go and also being told not to send any future mail. I wonder pretty much everyday thinking about my family feeling depressed most of the time not knowing anything or what are they doing for the most part. I am always walking around with an empty heart. Even though I feel that nothing would have never changed if I stayed the sittuation would have gotten worse.

This month I didn't do any runway shows and I stayed away from Barbizon. I guess it was because I stopped getting emails from them for sat. classes I guess they removed me from the list but July wasn't a total loss I was able to attend 2 events for ATN for a Ghost Concert in Baltimore and one in Philly at the Wells Fargo Center. I also this month paid off several bills one from the car and I also paid off my Chase card.

on a sadder note I try to send Kaitlyn a card only to get scolded that I missed spelled her name. but then again Danny complained that I didn't send him one. So maybe I should complain that know one sends me nothing to which I don't care. but the thought would be acceptable to me because it will allow me to know that they still care for me as there dad, but it is only a fantasy. Everything I try to do to make sure that they know I still care and love them. I just hope before I pass away that I will be able to see them.

On a brighter note I managed to get my credit fico 8 score up to 695 good enough to get a mortgage for my own place.  as July comes to a close I am looking forward to see what August has in stored for me.