July 2020

Well I can say that July turned out to be interesting and nerve racking. With me worrying about what my two boys  would ask me as I was trying to come up with reasons to answer those particular questions but I couldn't come up with any answers, I was getting upset over what kind of questions they would ask. So they day came for me to spend the week up there, as I walked in the door I ran into Vanne and he said hello to me along with my Grand son that I haven't seen since I left in April of 2019,I was happy that they both spoke to me, I didn't hug them because I didn't want them to realize that I had breasts like a female as I had to go up as Daniel instead of Danielle, I did manage to bring some female clothes with me but just one set. I did manage to wear my womens shorts some days, but I got a text message from them asking why I was wearing a skirt as my shirt came down almost to the end of me shorts. I guBess it looked like on camera that I was wearing a skirt. They both had that door bell camera so they were watching coming and going. I made some effort to see a few people that I knew like Amanda and her mother. I also made the effort to thank Candice for her support when I would get upset that I wanted to end my life , I told her she was a good person and that I appreciated all the help she has given me to keep me from the inevitable. I was happy to see some also it gave an opportunity to have my counseling session with Casey, I was able to him in person, finding out that he is way taller than me that I would need to wear my boots just to be at face level. Being up there gave me another opportunity to see Cherie, I really fell in love with her when I first saw her. But at the present she just wanted to be friends. So I took her to her parents burial site which didn't bother me but it was more than I bargained for as I had to go back to the house to take care of the dogs. I was happy to have met her in person and I hope that the friendship will go a little further but time will time.

   Before going up there I was offered to get paid to which I didn't receive not one cent. I had to buy some things for me to eat as I expected but Merle took me out to lunch and to olive Garden even if they offered to pay I wouldn't have taken it, but I treated them all to a rib dinner, using my credit card I was at least I could do for them. But I can say that July was overall good, I start the process of changing my name and getting my  and the two letters needed to start the process of getting my bottom surgery and I did manage to get a court date set to change my name to Danielle Nicole Nuscis which is set for August 16th I just hope that I got all the paperwork needed so there wouldn't be any delays. I am also looking forward to my 1 year anniversary celebration on August 19th for living as a female and being on HRT as well. I am so looking forward to it,

Plus working during this pandemic I just wished it was with a little more pay but I'm not going to complain at least I have a job.

So things are still looking good and I pray that it will continue ….

As I close out another chapter and month things are looking up ……