July 2015

just to keep notes to myself, I am going to seek professional help, I really need to get out of this rut, pretend life and deal with this divorce, it's still surreal to me,,,,, 
it's over I just can't except it, i'm tring my hardest but now that she's put herself out there and having sex with other people it's killing me,,,
I fully understand my kids love and need me in there lives forever, that will never change, I will always be there for them, I want them with me more than life itself,  my heart bleeds for them, i'm sure there fine it's me that need the work, a major tune up....... a complete overhaul...... with them in mind....